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| Monday, March 3rd, 2003 | | 11:39 am |
Semester END
I just completed my first semester on Fri. I was taking two classes called "Behavioral Science" (BS) and "Introduction to Media Arts" (IMA). I havent gotten my final grades yet, but whatever. These two classes along with my second semester class (that I tested out of) called "Computers, Math, and the Internet" (CMI) are labeled as "Mini School". They are "General Education" classes that are good and bad in all different ways. BS was my Tues and Thurs class last month. My teachers name was Windy Ramsey and she always smiled. She had a good positive attitude towards everything. She was about the only teacher I've seen so far that knows anythgin about really teaching. Most of our teachers know nothing about teaching and really just teach based on their experiences in really idiotic orders and such. Her class was basically the psychology or sociology class you all take in your first year of college. It was dumb, but was good because it helped me get back into the school groove. 1pm - 5pm tues and thurs with the occasional labs wasnt bad at all. I think I will remain in touch with her as she was super nice. The class was basically about student assessment and such and how to be a good student and such. Test taking skills, different human theories based on our life structures and stuff. Not bad at all. Now, IMA on the other hand was stupid. It was our "History" class for the year. Fucking dumb. One of our teachers, named Joe Koropsak, was an idiot. Had a story for everythign. One of those guys you reach a point and are like "OK, SHUT UP, I KNWO YOUR GOD ALREADY, DAMNNN". Total Tool. Got electricuted 42 different times. Was able to outrun lightning. Built the freezer ALONE, for the scenes in "Apollo 13" and just so happened to forget to ask for a credit. Oh yeah, my favorite, Pulled a T6 line once. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?????? THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS A T6 LINE. T3 is the highest it goes for T lines. Then it goes to like OC3's and such. What a fuckign moron. Anyways, our other teacher, Nate, was also a tool. Thoguht he was hot shit. One of those guys you see sitting on his streetbike next to a beach just trying to look cool. What a fag. They both were horrible teachers. IDIOTS. I didnt learn shit about anythign excpet audio equipment in that class, and I learned all that from my peers. Not even the teachers. Dumb class, but you have to take it. Can't test out of that one. Class was Mon, Wed, and Fri 1pm - 5pm with a buttload of labs. That was my exciting first month of class. Met a lot fo good people and had some good times. But I started my "Entertainment Business" (EB) class this morning, Mon, Wed, Fri 9am - 1pm with NO LABS!!! WOOT and I start C++ tomorrow, Tues and Thurs 5pm - 9pm for class and 9pm - 1am for lab after every class and Sat 1pm - 5pm for class and 5pm - 9pm. Im so excited. EB only lasts this month so ill update about that class then, but C++ lasts 2 months so ill update on that class then as well. Hope all is well with everyone I fell out of contact with. I miss you all and will surely make an effort to get a hold of you soon. Bye all. | | Sunday, February 16th, 2003 | | 6:03 pm |
Long time
I havent written here in a long time. Not much to say cept I miss my girlfriend, my snow, my cat, and a few select people. Im pretty lonely here sumtyms, but I dont even notice it. Blah, i cant even write here. I tested out of one of my classes. I start C++ in 2 weeks. Im pretty stoked. I attended a presentation yesterday of a guy that got a job at turbine games and makes boku bux at 24. Theres more, but im too lazy to get into it. Well my hours are pretty wacky, and my life is pretty unreal down here, but I feel like ive never left home. Like this has alwasy been my home. Surprisingly enough I enjoy it here. Im in my element. its nice. Did I mention I miss my girlfriend?? And my cat?? I will have to get a cat for here. Soon enough. Well i need to go to school and do work. BAH Hope all is welll for everyone. | | Thursday, December 12th, 2002 | | 8:23 pm |
| | Saturday, December 7th, 2002 | | 3:30 am |
I had a semi breakdown tongiht. It was strange. Stef and I went to a hockey game tonight and I admittidely had a good time. I then went to stef's house and installed her moms new printer and then talked to her for about an hour or sumthing. I then took stef to sam's house and we all went to the diner. We were discussing snowboarding tomorrow, but I guess it fell through after our discussion this evening. We finally began to discuss the move. And how it would effect our relationship. I have to say, a lot of hurdles of come through this relationship and I have stuck strong since the beginning. I have felt temptation get the best of me, but I never fed it for fear of destroying such a fragile and wonderful person. Back to our discussion. On the way home, I brought it up consdiering we never talked about it and its less then a month away just about. We kinda talked and kinda beated around the bush. Neither of us wan tot end this relationship for any reason, but wtf? How will it work when I live so far away. We never came to a conclusion. We side tracked into rough grounds. I have become a mean person these days. Especially to her. I dont get it. I have NEVER been this mean to people. I knwo she is a dominated girl by me, and thats one thing understandable about the way we act, but she doesnt even recognize how mean I am. Ive always been the sweetest boyfriend. ALWAYS. And I am when its not towards her. Like when I talk about her to others, its always wonderful things. When I think about her, its only the most perfect stuff. But then I see her adn I turn into satan. And she doesnt recognize any meanness in me at all. So I am rambling on about shit tongiht and getting super upset, and I realize something. She reminds me of me. Before all my corruption. Before I realized that most people arent nice. When I was a happy, ignorant, loving person. I used to be pretty carefree. Then I saw something that scared me and made me sick to my stomach. I saw myself, treating her for the last 3 months, just like everyone else has alwasy treated me. And then I saw myself not even realizing it until afterwards. And then I saw myself hating all the ways people treated me. And then I saw myself swearing I would NEVER do it to anyone else. And now I see myself doing it to the most beautiful, most wonderful girl I have ever layed eyes on. And I realize, that I have become something else. Something that I am not. If people know me from a long time ago, then they know me for my spirit. Well, my spirit is gone, and I never realized it left me. I have made a fool out of myself. I have let myself spiral downward to somewhere I dont belong. Maybe now that ive realized it, I can change myself. I hope so. I feel cheated. I tell my stories to people, and people get intrigued and admire. But thats all they are. Stories. I am empty inside. I am lonely. I have no meaning nor purpose. I feel numb. I feel cold. "I love to hate! I hate to feel!!" I am sorry Stefanie. I hope you dont regret me. You mean to me more then youll ever know. No matter what, you own a piece of me. I have wronged you in a way that I know is the most painful and I shall never do it again. I realize how fragile you are more then ever tongiht. I realize that you are just a dreamer. I realize that I have the ability to help make or break your dreams. I shall acknowledge this now and never be a part of destroying anythign in you. I can promise you that now more then anythign else in my life. It is my promise to you. I will never hurt you again. -Alex- | | Tuesday, November 19th, 2002 | | 12:34 am |
| | Monday, November 18th, 2002 | | 3:45 pm |
| | Tuesday, November 12th, 2002 | | 9:39 pm |
So, looks like the madball show isnt listed anymore for dec 7th Dec 6th they are playing in South Amboy, NJ. So I guess the reunion show is off. Whatever Hardcore sux anyways. i am watching the hatebreed video on "MTV.COM", an it makes me realize how gay hardcore is now, yet, makes me miss the good ol days when hardcore was a lifestyle, not just a style. When everyone at a show was hard and didnt have to act it out, when everyone had fun adn hugged after hitting each other. Now there is too much animosity (think thats the word, hehe). I dont blame it on the newbies of the scene, cause i was once a newb too, I just blame it on Fernando for closing the doors at the Tune Inn to hardcore. Fucking loser. Every since that day, that month, that week in liek 97 or sumthin, hardcore died. Thats the day our music died. I wish it never changed, but I guess 5 years from now, kids in the scene today will be saying the same thing I am saying today. Just an ongoing cycle adn ive been flushed out and replpaced. Off to plpay more computer games. | | Thursday, November 7th, 2002 | | 2:39 am |
YES!!!!!!!
I am 49% Geek  You probably work in computers, or a history deptartment at a college. You never really fit in with the "normal" crowd. But you have friends, and this is a good thing. Take the Geek Test at fuali.com | | Tuesday, October 29th, 2002 | | 6:27 pm |
WHOA
 how would you commit suicide?"YOU WOULD DROWN YOURSELF. you are considerably jaded, even apathetic, about life. you find death desirable, but you aren't particularly concerned with suicide. you're strong and opinionated. if you did decide to kill yourself, it would be on a whim, and you wouldn't want to be pitied by those you'd leave behind." Pretty hardcore I must say. Kinda deep. Sounds pretty intense. What do you think?? | | Saturday, October 19th, 2002 | | 5:54 am |
HOLY SHIT
Dec 7th El N Gee club New London, CT @ 7PM $12 MADBALL REUNION Im so there. I expect YOu to be there too. | | 4:23 am |
FUCK LINUX
Linux has yet again, destroyed my file systems. I love linux, dont get me wrong, but cmon. Red Hat fucking HATES me. Everytym I do anythign with it, it shits on me, AND HARD TOO. I just lost all my mp3's, games adn saves, fucking like 12 gigs of shit. Whatever. I guess I just have to accept it and move on. Its kinda like lettign go of everythign old. I dont know. Im bugging out. Later!!! | | Friday, October 18th, 2002 | | 3:06 pm |
Address
Soooo.....I got my new address. My move in date is Jan 15th. Im pretty nervous. But hey, it should be fun. Im kinda in a dilemma on what to bring and how to bring it (uhaul, ryder, car, etc...), but do time it will come ot me. I have decided that this decision for myself is probably one of the best things I have done in a long time. I have a lot of things I need to let go of, but more so, I get to embrace the one thing thats been with me since I was like 14 (other then skateboarding, but hey, weather is great in Florida, meaning more sk8ing). I cant wait to decorate my apartment. A gret friend of mine is drawing a picture for me in charcoal that im so honored to be recieving when its finished. I will be hanging that in my living room. Im so stoked. I also decided, that the kitty comes with me. :) I cant go without having my kitten bear with me. I love him more then the world and it would be horrible for me to leave him. Off to see the movie "The Ring". I cant wait, I hope its as good if not better then the japanese version. Bye all. | | Thursday, October 10th, 2002 | | 12:05 pm |
| | Friday, October 4th, 2002 | | 8:19 pm |
SUNNY DAYS
Well, in like 12 hours I will be on a plane to Florida. I am off to see my soon to be school and the area I will be living in. A full update to come for sure. Well on wed evening (Oct 2nd) my right forearm began to swell. It was obviously form the surgery that took place on mon Sept 30th. The surgery was to remove my implants. Well, the swelling that took place on wed, was do to internal bleeding. Also called a hemotoma. Well, mine was a severe hemotoma. I went to the ER at 1:30am and they drained it. Reopened the beautiful work that was done by my plastic surgeon, and now I have the grossest wound ever. Unfortunately, its the only way it would get better. So I got my arm drained and was released. My arm is the size of a balloon and im miserable abotu that. Im going to FL with just my mom now. My step father got called into work which sux because I was hoping he would come with us because hes super interested. whatever I guess. My girlfriend couldnt make it for whatever reason which sucked becuase it woulda been great to be away from CT with her. She is also interested in the same school for a different program, so it woulda given her a great chance to see the school as well. Maybe shell be coming to florida with me and attending the school. who knows. From the looks of it right now, things between us will be lasting a great long time (at least until I move) and hopefully beyond that. Ive foudn something in her that I havent found in any other girl that ive been with, but only time will lead us now in the direction we belong. Shes been there for me in every situation and thats done so much for me. Makes me feel so good and special. Well enough abotu all that stuff in my life. I need to go to bed for I need to get up at like 5am for my flight in the AM. Well, I am off. I lvoe the people whom know I lvoe you, especially Stef, Andy, and my lil fag-a-mufffin, Sarah. You three are the most important people in my life right now. I lvoe you. -Alex- FooDawg | | Wednesday, October 2nd, 2002 | | 6:12 pm |
Im so DANGEROUS!!!!
Im dangerous when im on medication. So dangerous in fact that I just treated myself to a brand new computer. BWAHAHAHHAHAH. I just boguth a pentium 4 2.4ghz cpu with an Abit IT7 mobo. Now all I need is sum pc2700 memory and im all set. If anyone wants to donate to the Alex fund, you can send your donations to my paypal account foodawg@snet.net. Just send me like a buck or two if you love me. Itd be nice of you. Cmon, I had cancer man. And my arm hurts. Im broken adn need sum money to pay my medical billz. I love you all. | | 12:56 pm |
Life Changes
Lately, things have been changing massively in my life. I have made a lot of new friends, realized who my old friends really are, grown closer to someone imparticular, made a lot fo decisions and pursued a lot of things. On Mon, Sept. 30th, I under went a surgical procedure to remove my implants in my arm. Its a weird feeling to hold the bag of teflon that the dr. gave me after he took them out, and to jsut look at the stuff thats been in me for the last year to year and a half. Its like physically removing a big piece of your life and jsut holding it in front of you. Something that did EVERYTHING with you. Something that sparked multitudes of conversations. This weekend ill be visiting florida to look for an apartment. A lot of people doubt the things that I say im going to do in my life. Almost everythign ive ever wanted to do, ive done. I dont live a life where I restrict my dreams. I think everyone should pursue everythign they want to. If its a financial reason you cant pursue your dreams, there are plenty of ways to fix that. So anyways, I am moving to the orlando area to pursue my career. Ive worked in the computer field for the last 4-5 years of my life. I work in the tech aspect of the computer field. I HATE IT. its stupid. Its mind numbing. So I decided to pursue a different aspect of the field now. Programming. Ive never done it, but in my most recent days of my life, ive realized that I need sum form of creative outlet. This seems perfect. So I will be pursuing that in lovely florida. Im moving in Dec. My love life seems to have taken a turn for the better. I have a lovely and amazing girlfriend now. She is so special in every way. She makes me happy. We spend a lot of time with each other, adn its so realistic. Unfortunately my move may effect our relationship. All I know is that I do not want ot lose her. I care abotu her so much. I will not let this move effect the relationship whatsoever. My moving will never change the way that I feel about her. It will not take my emotions towards her away. I will always feel this way towards her. Since the first night I saw her, she shot me the most beautiful smile ive ever seen in my life. So beautiful. I knew something was so special and perfect about her. I instantly fell for her. Nothing will take that away from me and her. I wont let her go. Now, the twilight zone is on, and I will go watch it while relaxed on vicodins. Man my arm hurts. The procedure and incisions and such hurt, but I lost feeling in my arm. Its strange. My nerves were destroyed, my arm was destroyed. Im upset abotu it all, but at least the implants are now out and further damage will now subside. I hope everyone that knows me and cares about me knows that you are in my heart. Ive just been super busy with working and surgeries and moving and school stuff lately. Thanx for understandign. -ME- | | Monday, September 16th, 2002 | | 2:09 am |
SON OF A WHORE
You are Not Even A Panda!!
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| Nope. Not even close. You're some guy at Walmart holding an Al Roker book. If you are really this person, I would take pity on myself. But hey, at least you look happy.
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| | | Sunday, September 8th, 2002 | | 1:45 pm |
"I cant believe how screwed up these people are"
I think everyone interested in like twisted plots and greatly filmed movies, should go see "One Hour Photo". Its Robin William's new movie. So twisted and really emotional. Unfortunately there were a lot of people laughing at parts that were not meant to be laughed at, but I guess the whole Robin Williams being super emotional and the character he played, people werent ready for it and used to it. He plays this photo clerk at a Sav-Mart. He is fanatical about how the pictures come out and really obsesses over this one family in particular. The plot twists were awesome, im not gonna ruin it for people whom are interested, but oh man. It hit me so hard, I didnt know how to feel about it. It is a rather disturbing movie in how it impacts you, but the movie was just so amazing and that is one of the main reasons why it was so amazing. It isnt a movie if your hoping to laugh, or if you dont want to think. Its a movie for people who are prepared for a form of reality. A very real reality that lives among us everyday. I hope everyone sees it and enjoys it as much as I did. On another note, I had a picnic yesterday. It was great fun. We had kiwi's and starfruits (mmmm) and ritz crackers and peanut butter and jelly, and goldfish, and snapple, and string cheese, and we skipped stones, and we laughed, and we watched the sun set, and we fed the fishes, and we quacked with the dux. It was great fun. I need to go clean my house now cause im sick of it. bye -Krampy- | | Wednesday, September 4th, 2002 | | 1:39 pm |
Windmills for all
I'm on the phone with my sister right now. She is a flight attendant for a major airline. She was just telling me nonchalantly how she had to take a security coarse for her job. She was saying how much fun it was to learn the WINDMILL!!! HOLY SHIT!! THE FUCKING WINDMILL??? ON AN AIRPLANE???? Who woulda thought?? Guess we know where the real roots of self defense are beginning to derive from. TEE HEE. Thats my tidbit for the day. Hope all you littl ehardcore heads get a kick outt that like me. Jus think for one second, a hostile situation. AK's everywhere threatening to kill anyone who moves. Then all of a sudden some Sum Of All Fears or old school VOD comes over the loud speaker. Then you see flight attendants from every directions. WINDMILLS GALORE!!!! hehe -Krampy- Current Mood: HOLY COWCurrent Music: Airplane Scenerio Muzic (in my head) | | 1:06 am |
WOWOWWOWOWOW
Anyways, today was a pretty swell day. Although I still miss my Andy more then life itself, I am coping. We had a good conversation yesterday that made me smile. I woke up particulary late, and then went to the post office, to send out my school application. Its reality now. No more just talkin about it. Im doing it. I then went to Andy's house to watch Hope-Dog Rippert. She barked and yelled at me at first, so I plopped in front of her and talked to her for a few. We had a good converstaion and she decided it was ok to be nice to me, so I let her out. Ill tell you Andy, your house is super weird without you there, especially when I can see your bedroom floor. hehe. Hope and I hung out in the backyard for about an hour and just chilled. then I made her dinner and we hugn out till Andy's dad came home. Then back home I came. I talked to the girl tonight. *swooooon* I have a date for sat for a picnic. Its gonna be great fun. Im just so excited to make new friends. I was supposed to go out tonight, but I cant now. I have to get up early tomorrow and take care of some business with a few people I know. After that, nothing to do. Hope all is well for my distant friends at school and hope everyone is havin g agood week like myself. I miss you all very much. NIGHT -Krampy- Current Mood: Super CoolCurrent Music: "Pattern Against User" - At The Drive-In |
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